Friday, September 10, 2010

Am I going crazy????


I found a website that makes real life babies for babyloss moms. The price depends on the kits you use, but she is so willing to work with you. I want one! I know that Juanito wasn't far enough along to be able to make an exact replica of him, but all of my kids have been very similar in size and characteristics. The only difference was Mitch came out as my white boy. I want to send in newborn pics of my other kids and have a baby made in memory of Juanito. Am I going crazy? Is it weird that I want to try and crate a doll that I think would have looked like him? I just want to be able to hold a baby in my arms and know that this is what he could've/would've looked like. Maybe it's going a little too far, but I still want one. What do you as fellow babyloss moms think? Am I going too far? Is it morbid of me? Am I crazy... OK don't answer that one because I already know the answer...LOL

I just want some advice and thoughts from my friends!

9 comments:

  1. When I seen this site I said "Oh wow...is this crazy?" And then I realized babies dying is crazy!! what is wrong with having a doll that would resemble your children. Many people have teddy bears or stuffed animals that are in memory of the baby...this is a more realistic way of remembering Juanito...I say you do what you think will heal your heart...I wouldnt judge you...I honestly dont know what my opinion would be before I lost Alyssa, but now my perspective on life and healing is so different....<3 I support you if you get it, and Id love to see what it looks like too!!

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  2. I have one of these...I put pics on my blog if you want to see - I think it's my post dated 8/29 when I wrote about Madelyn's birthday. My favorite part is that they're weighed to match the weight of your baby. Anyway, since I have one myself, I can't call you crazy. :)

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  3. Hey, blogger ate my comment! I wrote last night and came back to see what others had to say. I found that site long ago and I've wanted one too!I can't find it again, so if you decide to get one post the link will you? I had all the same thoughts, I am I crazy for wanting one, is it taking it too far? I don't think so- what can it hurt really? Now I did see a tv special where a woman was called crazy by outsiders because she took dolls places with her and acted as if they were alive...carseats, strollers, talking to them and all. If I remember correctly she was infertile. THAT might be taking it too far, but who am I to judge her. Whatever brings us peace and healing is what I say.

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  4. I never knew about that site. I think if it feels comfortable to you and if it is something you want to do, then it is okay. Everyone is different and different things comfort them.

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  5. I think it's a wonderful idea.Who is to judge us anyways,if they have not walked where we have then they don't know.I pray they never will,but you know what I'm saying.How do you go about doing it?
    Do you send a picture of your baby in and they make them to look like the baby that went to heaven? I think it's just wonderful,I mean I would love to have one.What would it really hurt?I think it may help us so that when we hurt we can just hold the doll and remember what it was like to hold our babies for the last time.(((HUGS)))

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  6. I believe that YOU are the only one who can decide what will help YOU. No one else can pass judgement. In the end, if you are happy with your decision it is all that matters.

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  7. I've wanted to get one but haven't found a person that could make one of Wyatt with his anomalies so I haven't done it. i don't think your crazy, I just think you miss your baby.

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  8. I am behind on blog reading, so this comment is coming a little late, but no you are not crazy! I think that anything that can make you feel closer to your sweet baby is good therapy.. I have never seen this site before, but will have to check it out. I do know that for so many nights I would have given anything to have my arms full, and even though its not them, its something that reminds you..<3 big hugs.

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  9. I don't think it's crazy or morbid. People buy real life dolls all the time. Why not buy one to remember your child?

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