Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Moving On....

This might sound horrible, but do any of you ever just want to move on because you are just so emotionally exhausted? That is how I am feeling today. I feel very lost with where I am at these days. I don't feel like I belong to any one group any more and that is very confusing! I just want to move on and not have to worry about anything or have to be the voice for my son who died, so people will remember him. I just want to move on from all these bad things that have happened to me and "forget" them. I know I can never forget my son or the short time I had with him. I love him too much for that, but today I just want to move on!

9 comments:

  1. I have definitely felt that way before. You just want all the pain to stop. You want it all to go away to just breathe and be for a bit. ((hugs))

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  2. Just try to take it day by day. I know it doesn't seem like it but it will get better. It can't stay this way forever. You will never move on from your loss but you will learn to live with it and turn that into a positive. Better days are ahead, just have faith that He will see you through ((HUGS)).

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  3. Michelle, I read your comment and im not sure if this is the post you said sounds the same, i dont see a similarity though so i could be wrong?

    But I wanted to comment anyway...sometimes grieving is so consuming it literally takes the life out of you...allow yourself to take time to focus on the life you had with him, and dont feel the pressure to have to talk about it all the time. The only one who lives with this, is you and Juan and the kids. It has to be what works for you guys...((hugs))...you wont every forget Juanito, we wont that is for sure, even if you dont talk 24/7 he is always on my mind

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  4. All these emotions can be so exhausting. Wishing peace for you. xx

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  5. i could have written this post myself. the last couple of weeks i've just wanted to leave this life behind and start all over in a new place with new people! i would never do that, but just the thought of being able to restart - have a new beginning - not be this me...how freeing it is to think about that sometimes. so glad you posted this - you're not alone!

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  6. I would love to start over but my when I think of starting over it's with Bill and Corinne...watching her play and grow up...I just miss her so very much and miss all of the moments that we weren't blessed with. I just want my little girl back. What I would do for a different outcome with Corinne. (((HUGS)))
    <3 Juanito <3

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  7. I know those same feelings but I know I can never forget. Alot of times I wish I could just start all new and that none of this happened. I know that God has his reasons for all the Why's things happen. Just take it one day or moment at a time. All of us are different. I'm praying for you so much.

    {{HUGS}}
    Caroline

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  8. I know you have been trying to deal with this on your own, however, I think you have reached a point where outside help may be what you need. Like you say, you have the rest of your family to think about and if you are always feeling this way they are feeling the effects of that. I know it is a big committment (time, money and emotionally) however, if you think about the long term benefits it pays for itself.

    Best wishes and God's blessings in all that you do....

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  9. I don't think it sounds horrible at all. You get tired of it and I understand that completely!

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